Just some food for thought...

To My Husband,

Right now I'm tired of caring about the things that are stressing you out right now. Your son and your ex can no longer be my problem. I know that I voluntarily got myself emotionally invested in making sure you and your son have a happy relationship and maybe I should have distanced myself from the get go. But I didn't. And here we are.

I'm sick of you two fighting all of the time about something that does not need to be fought over. Get over yourselves. And to put things plainly, my body and the baby that I'm carrying should not have to be put through this nonsense. I'm stressed out on a daily basis and I don't think you fully understand that my stress and unhappiness affects my baby. Our baby. You talk about us becoming a family when the baby gets here and how excited you are for this to happen, and that's great. What you don't understand is that we already are a family. The baby I'm carrying is already here, even though you can't see it yet. He/she can hear things now, they can see light, they can process and respond to outside influences. So every time I cry and get upset, (which is happening almost every other day nowadays), the baby can hear me. I don't want our baby listening to me cry and you shouldn't either. And when you yell the baby can hear you. Is that what you want your baby hearing? We should be playing music and laughing and talking. That's what our baby should be feeling and hearing.

That's all for now. If you notice me distancing myself from your ugly situation, it's not because I don't love you, it's because I love our baby. And that must be my priority.